Discover Challenge: Speak Out


On the surface, at a quick glance, we see nothing but what we expect to see, a shallow millimetre or so of rainwater pooled into a puddle. We know this is what we are looking at, and can even see the pavement texture mottled beneath the water, so we walk on by, untroubled and unconcerned. But if we were to stop to look again, looking beyond what is immediately visible, we may be able to see so much more reflected back at us, however elusive and intangible that reflection may be.

Sometimes I feel a bit like that puddle in the road, non-descript yet so much more nuanced than at first I seem to be. On the surface I look like any other middle-aged mother and grandmother, and indeed in many ways I am just that woman, so easily passed by in the street like so many others. But look beyond the shallow surface view and you may just see a shadowy hint of the drizzling depression that lurks constantly in my depths, its long sinewy tendrils reaching up out of the darkness, always threatening to pull me down again, drowning me, choking me, suffocating me.

I live with those fluid fingers always beckoning on the farthest edge of my peripheral vision, watching and waiting for me to falter in my daily life, and I am wary and watchful in return. It has ever been thus, I know nothing different. Sometimes I speak out about my demons, brave and defiant, and sometimes I remain silent, cowed and shamed. There is often no rhyme nor reason to how I feel about it, I simply choose to drift on the breeze and flit this way and that, either floating with the winds of change or fighting them as I see fit…

Discover Challenge: Speak Out


5 thoughts on “Discover Challenge: Speak Out

  1. Tricia February 2, 2017 / 5:59 pm

    Oh wow very well said. I too struggle with depression and can relate to you’re hidden person analogy. All we can do bring our best to each day and move forward. Great photo too!

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  2. Naomi Byrnes February 3, 2017 / 1:02 am

    In your post I realise how “speaking out” is in fact for many people the courage it takes to get out and live, with pain that might not be visible. Here’s to everyone who’s climbing a mountain or carrying a weight that isn’t readily obvious to all. Warmest love and thanks for this inspiration

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    • Ruth February 3, 2017 / 9:12 am

      Thank you for your kind words, much appreciated 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Margarita February 3, 2017 / 3:20 am

    Thanks for speaking out, Ruth. 😉 xoM


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