Daily Prompt: Denial

Hmmm… I was planning to write a list: Things I am in Denial About.

But almost immediately I hit a snag – if I already know something is an issue for me, then I’m not really in denial about it, am I? I may be deliberately ignoring it, refusing to deal with it, actively going out of my way to avoid it – but denial? Doesn’t the act of acknowledgement kind of refute the denial part?

I mean, I know I have an emotional eating problem – I’ve had it for years. When I’m stressed and/ or upset, I tend to comfort myself by overeating. I’ve tried lots of different approaches to dealing with it over my lifetime, but here I am at 53, still with an emotional eating problem. Unfortunately, simply knowing it doesn’t always fix it.

I learned a long time ago to swallow my disappointments in life, and habitually I swallow them down with a little sweetener along the way – my reward for being a good girl, for keeping quiet, for not rocking the boat, for being ‘nice’, and sadly I still find that old habits die hard…

Daily Prompt: Denial

 

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7 thoughts on “Daily Prompt: Denial

  1. The Photonomad April 6, 2017 / 7:01 pm

    I stopped smoking years ago. Every week I would reward myself for not smoking – usually a CD. I found that, when times are difficult (and stopping smoking can be difficult), then it is good to work towards a reward. Sometimes the reward can be as simple as a nice cup of tea, at other times, it can be watching a film and……probably the best reward of all – staying in bed for an extra couple of hours in the morning…

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  2. Secrets to Slim June 8, 2017 / 2:14 pm

    It’s so nice to see people actually making the connections between their hunger and the emotions that trigger it! I’m a former emotional eater. I’m very proud to say that. Feels like another lifetime, like another version of me when I couldn’t trust myself around food. It was a long journey but definitely possible. Do you tend to feel guilty when you emotionally eat or do you allow yourself to feel satisfied with the food you just ate?

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